My feeling on you

I am suffering food poisoning from this Tuesday until now....  I really cant take any propereals cause once i took it i will just.vomitted it out or shitted it out... haha... i only can take raisin bread and a cup.of milo... until my stomach fully recover ya... sigh...

I asked the person ady... and i knew the story ady.. roughly.. i am the substituition for that your ex.. haha... i pretend i m.fine and don care about when i heard it.. but my heart was bleeding at that particular moment.. how many years ady.. i don know ady.. 

u r the one who came approached me.. and u asked me whether can be ur boy friend or not... haha... and i said yes... and u did tell me the history between u and ur ex.. so i though u ady end the relationship with him ady... so i acceptrd it.. and we called each other... talked to each other.. web cam.. although i never met you before.. but i was happy wit it..... and one day... u lost ur phone in exam hall... i cant contact you at all... facebook no on... skype no on... you were disappear at that moment.. what should i do? I really gpt no.ideas.. so i wait and wait.. and finally u send a "hello" to me after few weeks... u told me you went to singapore and your phone were stolen by someone... okay.. i accepted it... but why you disappear again.. why again... 

i am a strong person.. but i cant be strong all the times... i cant be optimiatics all the times... i will cry also.. i will emo also... why don just u told me you were attached with your ex again... is not tat hard right.. and it really toke me more than half year times to receover to calm down my feeling.. and you appeared in.my life again... and y still wan to care about me.. haiz... i don know wat you want... i m confused... 

recently the feeling towards you become stronger ady... and i knew it... and i decided to meet you.. i was so excited to meet you... haha... just one hour before.o went to your place.. someone told.me you actually got bf..at first i don really believed it.. but when tat guy told.me.that u took photo with him before... then.only i realized... ya... is true.. you have bf... thete exist a guy who is your bf... and i was feeling upset... i sat on the bed.and i started to cry... and you din even message me.. i seriously disappointed wit you ady... i don know what to do ady... 

Dont expect too much from.people... don expect people will treat u nicely as what u did to them... this is the statement that always told by one of my close friend... ya.. i was the one who thought too much.... i choose not to angry.. and is pointless to angry ady... just appreciate what i had now... you are a.nice guy.. i believe.. if not you won choose ur ex again... it shows how much you love him... 

Ya.. i know i still like you.. but i won do anything la... just accompany most of the time...  ya... i am so stupid one... haha.. tis is me!!! sigh... feel cold n pain again... hope it will recover soon la... night everyone ^___^